POEM FOR THE FOOL

kinda scary
but kinda sweet
feels so kinda easy
but easy is not that easy
actually hard I know much better
hard is easier because
I will always know the end
sometimes even before it starts
so easy and lovely are
actually scary

sweet and lovely say 
you don't have to fear
I don't have to fear
yet easy is so new
I don't know my ropes
easy is so rare
easy is not easy to find
easy is not easy to learn
how not to be scared
so i'm scared
but i'm gonna be brave

part of me wonders
if I'm fucked up
if feelings appear like that
for everyone
or if I'm the fool who
doesn't belong to any troup
except for the broken hearted healing club
where all the other idiots live
where we talk and we ask
is it better
to sit and cry and be safe
or is it better to try and be scared
and risk coming back anyway